Have you ever been on a real roller coaster ride at an amusement park? There’s anticipation, then the height of enjoyment and the low of coming down that first big hill and wondering if you’re going to fall out or lose your cookies, but then the exhilaration of completing the ride and the feeling you get afterwards.
Well, this week started out as the lowest on that ride and I’m slowly making my way back up the hill so I can keep going and finish the ride. To be honest, I’m still in overwhelm mode and was even angry for a bit thinking about all of the tasks to complete. Was that subby kicking in? I’m sure it was.
It’s REALLY hard with a job that keeps me busy, as well as other activities I participate in. If I miss a reading out loud time, I feel guilty and start to question what I’m doing. I think to myself, “I’m 61 years old. I’m too old to get my thoughts and blueprint changed.” I even was pretty down about it at one point, so I let that get in the way of positive and desirable thoughts.
On a lighter note, each time I’ve said the “DO IT NOW” part out loud in the bathroom (because my simple chore to complete takes place in that location), my cat followed me in there and was visibly scared when I said the words loudly and forcefully. It made me laugh and got me thinking about the benefit this experience will ultimately have if I can just stick with it.
Since I’m very often a late bloomer, I haven’t yet seen any real change in any thinking, but I have been seeing those blue rectangles in many places!!
I’m still trying to take things one day at a time and keep telling myself that the experience won’t be perfect, but to keep on persevering and pushing myself to do this. Right now, in all honesty, I’m not feeling as hopeful as I was last week. However, I am showing up here right now and that’s a step in the right direction. Have a good week everyone!
Susanne – when I was reading about your cat’s reaction to Do It Now, I got goosebumps. Your world within is rippling into your world without.
Susanne, Keep stepping up!! You are in the right place at exactly the right time in your life! There are no coincidences…the Source provides the lesson when the student is ready!! I, too, am still overwhelmed, and just a few years older than you. I’m swamped with work, family, and MKE & Stand Tall course. But I know that if I’m going to move to the next level, I need to stretch myself to make the transition. Consider me your cheerleader…you’ve got this!
My first time in MKE I was angry too, but then I read Hannel’s lesson 2 “The subconscious mind cannot argue controversially. Hence, if it has accepted wrong suggestions, the sure method of overcoming them is by the use of a strong counter suggestion, frequently repeated, which the mind must
accept, thus eventually forming new and healthy habits of thought and life, for the subconscious mind is the seat of
Habit. That which we do over and over becomes mechanical; it is no longer an act of judgment, but has worn its deep
grooves in the subconscious mind. This is favorable for us if the habit be wholesome and right. If it be harmful, and
wrong, the remedy is to recognize the omnipotence of the subconscious mind and suggest present actual freedom.
The subconscious being creative and one with our divine source will at once create the freedom suggested”…
The simple DO IT NOW exercise is a powerful habit, that made a different experience for me.