My life has almost always felt like a roller coaster ride!
A hectic roller coaster ride!
Without end!
Full of highs and full of lows!
I’m not sure if its good or bad…
I don’t know if I should embrace it or reject it…

I have been wishing for some plain sailing for a very long time. Just a little bit of no stress time. It feels like I’m always rushed to catch up. Always behind the rest. I’m not even sure who I’m trying to catch up with anymore. Am I chasing the pack or am I chasing my own tail? MKE 2023/24 just started, and already it feels like I’m falling behind!

I’ve done MKMMA before. Back in 2015 was the first time. It wasn’t a bad effort. I would say about 75-80% and found a lot of value in it. A LOT! Since then I’ve attempted to do it 100% almost every year… Without fail there’s been blindsiding challenges thrown my way derailing me for putting in 100%! Life just happens… right?

Or does it? Is some force working against me? I have been asking myself if shouldn’t just give up and let it go. Maybe this is as good as it gets. However I have this longing for more. More of what? I don’t know! Just MORE!

Maybe I should stop fighting the roller coaster and just enjoy the ride. Maybe my life is just one big amusement park that I have been trying to escape. Maybe I should just embrace the amusement and become a clown. Maybe I’m already a clown… who knows?

Well I can tell you one thing! If life is a joke, I don’t get it!

I do know one thing for sure about myself, I don’t know how to quit and I never want to find out how!

In the workbook of week 1 there is an extract about the great Chicago fire and one of gentlemen who lost his business in the fire said, “Gentlemen, on that very spot I will build the world’s greatest store, no matter how many times it may burn down.”

Well that’s me! I will keep on keeping on! And I will keep repeating the MKE until I have found my bliss, my dharma, my purpose, no matter how many times it takes!

Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough!