I need to get off the roller coaster I’ve created for myself.

I was so excited and absorbed in Sundays class, I printed out the handouts, took notes, interacted and enjoyed all of it.

And then, like it sometimes happened in the past, Monday came. Monday with all the commitments I really didn’t need to agree to. All the wasted time on nonsense conversations and scrolling my time away.

Here I sit on a beautiful Thursday evening cramming to get this blog in. It wasn’t just one thing, it was a little tiny lapses, forgetting to sit for 15 minutes one, little by little I feel like the ship has left and I can’t catch up.

I know it’s not true, I can sit my butt down and list all the tasks and check them off once completed. I love checking off completed tasks, why didn’t I do it?

I’m observing my self, I’m observing what I do and what I don’t do. I’m writing down what works and what doesn’t work and now I’m back. Not disappointed, just more aware of my habits and working on creating good habits.

The day is not over, the week is not over I’m still in the game and I’m getting off the roller coaster.