So, subby acted itself out this week. I know I have resisted in the past, but this week was a challenge.
I feel the fight is lessening, ( as I do more work). I am looking forward to the tenacity being put to a more positive result instead of resistance. I have a pattern of letting myself quit or not giving my best, basically staying stuck.
Apparently, my fear of success is bigger than my fear of failure. Why would anyone rather fail than succeed? I have often wondered that about myself. A better understanding of subby is helping me.
At the height of my frustration, I was grateful to remember what was said about subby wanting to hold on to old patterns. I caught myself thinking that the exercises were keeping me from doing my business. I am growing to trust that in the long run, these exercises will help me grow and expand my business instead of taking time away to get things done.
Thank you for sharing your insights JoAnna. Being aware of Subby and how it wants to hold on to old patterns is the beginning of cracking the cement.
Great read JoAnna. Subby puts up a good fight and just when you think you got it beat it pops back up out of nowhere. You have the knowledge and the awareness not to form a new blueprint and I have no doubt you will come out on top bigger and stronger than before.
How to terrific that you figured out to shift your thoughts and move them to help you move forward. This is good stuff, Joanna!