If I am not my mind, then who the hell am I?
From what I understand from The Master Key System reading, my mind is made up of two parts, the conscious mind and the subconscious mind. The conscious mind is the thinking mind and the subconscious mind is the underlying program that determines your life.
And apparently I am the observer of both… Or am I? If I am the watchmen at the gate, what am I watching? Am I watching the conscious mind to ensure that the conscious mind feeds the subconscious mind with the best in order for my life to be the best?
Pardon me for being confused! Who is in control here? Who is really calling the shots? Is it me? Is it my conscious mind? Is it my subconscious mind? Are they all fighting one another?
All I know for sure is that I want different results in my life!
I have noticed that a lot of my automatic thoughts are real crappy! They are negative and sometimes very rude. I realise that I need to change that! Or my conscious mind needs to change it. Or my subconscious mind need to change it! Back at a point of confusion again.
Writing my DMP is just as confusing! When my hand writes down something, does it come from me, my soul, my conscious mind, my subconscious mind, some other force or entity that I’m not even aware of? I don’t know if it is good or bad that I’m asking all these questions. Am I just making myself tired or is this all part of the process of going forward?
In my mother tongue we have a term “moeite werd”. It translates as worth it, but the two words on its own translates a little differently. “Moeite” translates as difficulty, effort, or trouble. And “werd” translates as worth or worthy. Now it makes a little bit more sense. Me, myself and I have to work through the trouble with effort and difficulty in order to get the worthy future.
So, I still don’t know who is fighting whom in this journey of life, but I just have to keep on keeping on. Follow the instructions baby steps at a time, do the work, trust the process!
Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough!
we seem to share similar challenges in the MKE journey,
We just got to push forward
Loving this blog. To be honest I had to laugh cause I so recognize it. I was also very confused just like you when I first learn about the conscious and the subconscious. All I can say keep asking those questions and keep on taking baby steps. Soon you be explaining it to others.😉
Inspiring blog Gerhard! You are becoming aware of your thoughts which is very significant. Congratulations!!! Like you said, “baby steps at a time, do the work, trust the process!”