Last week my world tipped upside down in all areas of my life which has been a shock and all-consuming and at the same time revealed how change can create so much fear.
I fell into a pit of anxiety, fear and dread bouncing around between fear, negativity, shock working hard to keep my spirit and mind high while aligning to a better way through.
I’ve known for a long time that energy for me is key to keeping myself positive – when my life changed, and I felt threatened in all areas the shock became overwhelming and I was out of my depth, negativity and fear took over spiralling out of control.
I recognised from a greater perspective how much my mind can play into fear scenarios causing further stress and churning of the stomach. Knowing this would impact my health I had to keep raising my frequencies to squash the negative chatter based around fear. The habit of survival was strong.
With all that going on I plummeted, and all the exercises went out the window while I was busy free falling with nowhere to stand.
When the shock calmed down, I wondered – how do I continue to repeat the exercises with enthusiasm when by my bottom lip has taken over dragging itself to the ground.
I noticed the patterns and how they play themselves out, I noticed heartfelt caring friends who were there supporting me. I noticed choices and how you can focus on the positive and the negative and feel into becoming cantered. I noticed how to not act when I’m in reacting mode. All of this I noticed while my body and mind were reacting in the old programming behaviours.
This now feels exciting reflecting back – I’ve experienced this from a new perspective, and I am aware of all these changes ready for next time change brings fear.
My feet are back on the ground and I’m walking through the other side – I am reflecting on how to keep going, how to do it now while in the eye of the storm, how to not react to the fear of change and how to create space when life tips upside down.
So here I am just getting this blog written in the nick of time before Week 7 commences.
I always keep my promises!
Hi PennyMay, Yes you are ready for any time fear wants to take over. You’re doing it one day at a time by being the observer. Congratulations
Thanks Jen!
Inspiring share PennyMay. Bravo to you for being the Objective Observer….and the more we practice it, the easier and quicker we “catch ourselves.” Such a valuable skill to use when Fear tries to sneak in. Celebrating with you!!