I took the NLP Masterclass several years ago. This was completely different from the NLP Practitioner course. It was more focused on spiritual concepts. During the course, I struggled to find my higher purpose or did not believe I was worthy of leaving it.

At the end of the course, we were divided into small groups for a gift exercise that they had prepared for us. We needed to remain silent and truly feel the word that resonated with that person. Following that, each person shared one word that described how they felt in your presence.

My word was Love. I was stunned. Love, that can not be right. They stated that they also experienced it in class. It is how I get excited when I see someone I care about or when I am happy for someone. I am aware that I feel someone else’s happiness as my own. I am then genuinely happy for that person or to see someone.

It could get so intense that it felt like the sun was rising inside of me, and when I truly liked someone, beautiful white clouds appeared all around me. And that scared me because it seemed so much bigger than me. I felt like if I let the sun rise, I would disappear. The beautiful white clouds felt so peaceful, but I had no idea what was going on and was afraid to talk about it.

So, as soon as I felt the sun rising within me, I pushed it back down or stopped, avoiding the person I was happy for or the person I would see again. I guess I have pushed it down so many times that I can not remember the exact moment when it stopped rising within me.

Since the last few weeks of teaching at MKE on:

Miracles in Our Daily Lives.
Ineffective tools for dealing with fear, guilt, unworthiness, hurt feelings, and anger.

True Freedom.
Get in harmony with yourself. Become Love.
The meaning of life is to find our purpose our true nature. The purpose of life is to give it away.

I started longing to see the clouds again. I also began to feel that something was missing from my DMP. I found this strange because I was certain I had my DMP. I told my guide that I feel like I am still missing the becoming part.

Despite my strong desire to become an online writer and content creator, I felt something was missing. And, to be honest, I am still not sure what kind of online writer I can or want to be.

All I know is that I enjoy Hero’s Journey content and want to be a writer who inspires people to make positive changes in their lives.

Before going to bed, I kept asking myself, “Who do I really want to be, and who do I need to become?”

Nelson Mandela’s speech kept coming back to me, so I looked it up, and when I got to the end, this struck me: As we let our own light shine, we consciously give other people permission to do the same.

This is what I was doing: by being truly happy for the person, I consciously gave permission to others to be truly happy for themselves as well. See, here in the Netherlands, we have a saying; Je hoofd boven het maaiveld uitsteken, or Doe maar normaal, dan doe je al gek genoeg. It is to discourage you from standing out from the crowd, and the second is to simply act normal; it is already crazy enough, or to stop acting out of character in a way that may make you appear different, usually in a negative way. So many people, including myself, are making ourselves and our feelings smaller.

And when I was genuinely happy to see someone, I consciously wanted to make them feel seen or important. I felt so much joy when I saw someone happy for themselves, or when they felt truly seen or important.

Now I have added a new sentence to my DMP, which is saved on my laptop rather than the MKE platform. Still, a part of me believes that if this is my calling, it is too big for someone like me.

Now, my personal DMP states:
I am confident in letting my light shine because it gives other people permission to do the same. It brings me so much joy.

It is now my responsibility to apply what I have learned in MKE.
So that I can experience the clouds again.

Understand the purpose of clouds and enjoy the peace they bring.
Let my light shine.

Define the one thing I really want to write about.

I can be what I will to be. I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious, and happy.