Sometimes I love myself and sometimes I don’t! I tell myself I am doing my best but I think I am lying to myself at times.

When I look in the mirrow, I usually tell myself that all is well and everything is always working out for me. I am very much an optimist.

Then during the course of my day, things happen… unexpected calls/texts… time just slips away… my meditation is interrupted because I have to make breakfast for my sick husband and get ready for an appointment.

I can’t do my “sit” first thing as I planned because I got up too late. Now I have to rush to get ready for my zoom. I look presentable….and my client tells me I look fabulous but inside I feel like a failure.

I beat myself up for not doing all the wonderful rituals I have written down- sit/yoga/weight training/walking/reading/writing/planning my day on my CRM and making a few calls before the day gets started.

So, I look in the mirrow again and say …ok you messed up today but hopefully God gives you another day tomorrow to get things right…I was doing pretty good except for today… I really really really want to take better control of so many things in my life…I know I can be what I will to be.

I will keep at it because quitting is not a word in my vocabulary. I know what to do. Amen