This week I realized that I still struggle to accept compliments – like I still can’t take ownership of doing something good. “It’s no big deal” or “It was just luck…” And “it had nothing to do with me…”
I had thought I got past it, but this whole week has been crazy and I feel like changes are happening and my inner being is resisting – a lot. All week I’ve resisted writing this blog and found every excuse not to do it and now it’s 10 minutes to midnight.
The closer I get to something the more resistance I feel. This isn’t who I want to be.
I feel like there’s something missing from my DMP too. I need to figure this out so I can break away from these old ways of being. And I must figure out how to have good habits in the morning. I think that might be the key to opening up to everything else. Tomorrow I will be awake by 9am…even though it’s Saturday and I’ve been looking forward to sleeping in. I’ll get up and plan the day.
Let’s see how much resistance that gets LOL.
I agree with everything said here, Renee! Your awareness is becoming beyond compareness! LOL! 🙂
Sending love and support your way
Yes, thank you, one day at a time. It’s hard though, as I want to see the path clearly in front of me before I take the next step
thank you Scott!
I think it’s when I start feeling like I’m making progress and change is happening or about to happen …so I need to run from success
Renee what about the writing makes you resist?
Renee, it’s only Week 4 and look at how self-aware you are! So awesome to see. We’re cheering you on!
Bravo Renee!!! You are engaging in the exercises, being open and wrestling with new ways of thinking. You are growing and alive!! Focusing on your world within to receive clarity about the life you truly want.
Friendly reminder that we are only finishing up Week 4 and you have become aware of so much for yourself already! Continue focusing on one day at a time, one exercise at a time. We are cheering you on!