Holy Moly something in me has clicked! The synapsis are synapsing and
I feel overwhelmed with energy and excitement today.

I wrote on my “service list” that I would wake up at 5am and free write for an hour as part of manifesting my PPN; Recognition of Creative Expression. I used “DO IT NOW, DO IT NOW” untilI I was up and out of bed and sitting at my computer. And then I just let my heart pour out onto the keyboard.

I know it doesn’t sound like much but I’ve had this mental block around writing for a long time even though I know for a fact writing is part of my purpose. I can’t tell you how elated I am to have completed a full page today! My heart feels like it grew just being able to express myself through doing something I love! I can’t wait to go back tomorrow and do it again.

THEN while I was in meditation earlier I decided that along with the corresponding colors/shapes for my PPN and chores I would also include a rainbow that would signify financial abundance. Wouldn’t you know on the way to drop off my kids this morning there was a big clear rainbow waiting for me! Then I spotted a red stop sign.

My heart was beating so fast I was like omg it’s all happening! I can’t say that I’m doing everything 100% correct yet but I am doing something right,l I can feel it. Intention goes a long way and I truly feel that as long as you’re trying the universe will meet you halfway.

The short film we watched also pieced together so much about emotional awareness. Being addicted to certain thoughts at certain times of the day sounds crazy until you catch yourself in the act and realize, WOW I do run the loop of all the ways I resent my ex every time I wash the dishes.

When I realized it was happening yesterday I grabbed my phone and started to read through a list of affirmations I have saved. But it was wild witnessing how much my body wanted to go back to those negative thoughts. Addict behavior for sure. So I’ve come up with a plan.

I’ve made a voice recording of my daily affirmations and during dish washing time I will play this on repeat and see if I can’t form a new habit. Like OG Mandino says

“Therefore, if I must be a slave to habit let me be a slave to good habits.”

The Greatest Salesman in The World, Og Mandino, Chapter 8

Anyways, cheers to the journey!