Week 7 and I am finding myself resistant to some of the exercises, but still showing progress with the exercises I am completing.

I’m not sure why I’m hesitating with some of the exercises. I haven’t completed my DMP board or the recording. I am, however, continuing with the reading, my DMP, the law of giving and receiving, the mental diet, the service card, etc.

I absolutely love the service card and the feeling of accomplishment when completing a chore. I am slowing checking things of my to do list. And I notice I procrastinate a lot less. But I do still procrastinate, hence the hesitation on some of the assignments.

The opinion exercise was very hard for me, and still is. I’m not sure how to even have a conversation with most of my friends without voicing opinions. But, the mental diet has been great. I haven’t made it a full day, but I am able to catch myself at the start of a bad thought, replace that thought with another thought, and avoid going down the path of getting caught up in the negative.

But the biggest thing that has happened this week is in regards to forgiveness. During the last webcast Davene was talking about forgiveness and this really hit home for me. Why do I want to tie myself to these people who I can’t seem to forgive? And by not forgiving them, I am continuing to keep them and that negativity in my life.

I recently ran into someone who had done me wrong. It happened almost 20 years ago, but that betrayal changed the course of my career, the way my coworkers and other management perceived and treated me, and caused a lot of heartache, etc.

When I unexpectantly ran into them recently, I had a very short amount of time to decide my response. They, of course, acted like nothing ever happened. I decided to take the high road and be cordial. As soon as they walked away, I immediately realized I no longer care enough about the person to even harbor that resentment any longer. It was very liberating!

After the webcast last week, I realized that is the approach I need to take with the rest of these people I haven’t been able to forgive. I have been working on it and I believe I have made some serious progress.

So, even though I have fallen behind a bit, I still see major changes in my thought processes, my self-esteem, and procrastination. I will continue trying to get caught up, but in the meantime, I will embrace the positive changes that I am making happen.