Week 6 has found me having a hard time completing everything. Until this week, I have kept up on all the reading, all the new habits, and was seeing how everything was coming together and progressing.

Week 5 added the Emerson essay on compensation, which I couldn’t actually get through. It is lengthy and I had a hard time grasping the concepts with so many extra words. I have a hard time reading between the lines and this just seemed like a bunch of superfluous words to me. I tried over and over again, but only made it half way through, then scanned the rest.

Week 5 also added the assignment of having no opinions. I have failed miserably at this. At times I have been able to catch myself. But most times I don’t know how to have a conversation without having an opinion.

Week 6 has added a lot. At least that is the way it seems to me. I feel overwhelmed this week, and for the first time did not complete all of the daily reading.

I feel buried in all of the new activities, while not feeling like I’ve come close to mastering, or even completing the ones from the previous week. I feel overwhelmed and left behind.

I attend the live workshops and follow along, but there is just a lot of material and I find myself spending a lot of time going back to rewatch or find information in the workbook and guide.

I’ve considered throwing in the towel a couple of times this week. I am enjoying learning all of the things I have been learning about myself. I’m glad I’ve sat down and mapped out what I think I want out of the rest of my life, made goals, created new habits, and am trying to create a new reality. My concern is not being able to keep up with the pace of the class, especially with my seasonal job starting next week.

I also don’t want to quit, especially since I see progress in myself. So, I will chug along, and hope to catch up with the activities and continue on this path of learning.