When Mark said this week, you’ll either quit the course or quit giving it less than 100%; it really woke something up in me.

I haven’t been completing 100% of my daily MKE tasks… truth be told I’ve been super busy. It’s a busy season at work, I’m actually more on the ball than I’ve been in the past which is putting me outside of my comfort zone, but I also have 2 galas coming up for the organizations I volunteer for (Brain Cancer Canada and Million Dollar Smiles) and I’ve been going hard 8 to faint and I’m tired!

Not a minute of my day is restful and again. Mentally, physically and of course emotionally I feel like I’m running out of juice. Yes, it’s been hard to keep up, but not impossible. I know I can do better.

Instead of trying my best, I know I can do my best. Yes, it’s not easy growing into the person you want to be… It’s not who I used to be. I’ve always been like oh well if it’s not done, what’s the worst that can happen.. It’ll just get done later.

And I see the results of that thinking in my environment. Not winning company trips, not hitting bonuses, not winning prizes and not making a good living income.

Spending more than I make is definitely something I sweep under the rug, thinking about it is giving me anxiety. However, how much longer can I continue this?

Before I run out of savings, before I need to pump gas and don’t have the money for it, or eat and have to settle for cheap nutritionally empty food… I know I’m passing that threshold, it’s a lot of friction staying committed and accountable.

It’s uncomfortable but I love it (and kind of hate it too). This journey, this experience is going to get me to who I want to be when I grow up, so I keep pushing. Need to sleep now, after I complete 100% of my tasks.

The comfort zone is a beautiful place, but nothing ever grows there.