Have never kept a Diary, or Journal. In my mind that was for people that had good things going on in their life.

Grew up with too much fear of being punished, put down, belittled. Nothing good to write about. God forbid my true feelings and emotions would be committed to pen and paper, bad enough they were in my thoughts!

This could open the door for ‘the powers that be” getting a hold of it and I would for sure be ‘chopped meat’!

Funny how life works here I am beginning to write. This week’s lesson addressing honesty, courage, confidence and working on writing our definite major purpose, using index cards that have chores written down, connecting all this to shapes and colors has not been easy for me.

I have resisted doing this and writing blogs, I just want to read. Reading is my get away ticket. I can create all I want to through the books and I could do it in my head! Besides, who in the world would be interested in reading about me, my life, my day, etc.?

I hadn’t stopped to think that I have been living in the past, not making the good things that have happened my major memories. No, everytime something happened I reverted to what had happened in the past! Been missing out on living all the good things today!

As I slowly engage in attempting to write a Blog, I am beginning to see myself in a different light.

As I write I see how many great things have happened to me since those days of long ago when I made the decision that journaling, blogging, writing about my life, me was not something to share. I am beginning to see how much it has held me back!

This week’s lesson talking about honesty, courage, confidence has helped me write a little bit more about my feelings and thoughts. Maybe someone out there has been afraid of expressing, sharing what they went through growing up.

Wonder if any other bloggers have experienced this?

Today, thanks to the beautiful people in this group, it feels okay to share my thoughts!