Week three habits have not been easy for me. I find myself “forgetting” to read three times daily. And on the days I don’t forget, I feel reluctant to keep that new habit, for some reason.

I am even starting the see the bigger picture in how all of this might come together though. But I also see some changes possibly being required to reap the benefits of this new life with purpose. And that can be scary. That might have something to do with my reluctance and lack of enthusiasm.

I am also dealing with a knee injury and I have so much to do around my property to get ready for winter. Today was probably the last decently warm day of the year and I didn’t get any chores done, which just depresses me. I also feel like a burden asking friends for help. And I have also just recently realized most of my friends just don’t want to help me and are hoping I won’t ask for any help. That makes me feel even more depressed, and a little sad.

Which brings me back to the reading assignment, and The Master Key Part Three.

“Eliminate, therefore, any possible tendency to complain of conditions as they have been, or as they are, because it rests with you to change them and make them what you would like them to be.”

The Master Key Experience, Charles Haanel, Part 3

And now I see why we’re supposed to be reading these multiple times a day. It’s so easy to let the old habits win. After feeling a little sorry for myself, I sat down for one of my day’s reading assignments and ended with a new outlook. Only I can change things. I’m still here continuing to learn how.