I am so full of crap!
I have been bullshitting myself and everybody else all my life!
No, this is not a pity party! This is just me being honest!
I have delusions of grandeur!
From a very young age I have had this belief that I am better and I know better. Not in comparison with anybody specific, but just better. Period! Better than myself! Always looking at everything in my life thinking that my reality is beneath me. I believe that I can and should be getting better results. I deserve more and better!
In primary school I used to get really good grades without working hard. For some reason I believe that life should just always be that way. Awesome results without any effort.
I have been studying human potential for many years now and I keep telling everybody that we as human beings are grossly underperforming as we have more potential than we know. And I expect everybody else to believe the same! Everybody else should believe that they are better than what they are and that they should be delivering better results, as that would benefit benefit me…
From childhood I have had this recurring dream about myself flying. Not with wings, but just flying. When I want to go up, I just wave my arms and up I go. When I want to go down, I just think go down and voila! And obviously in my dreams I am the only person with this ability. For many years I really believed that we should be able to overcome gravity. Not just levitate, but seriously overcome gravity.
All of this is just me not wanting to accepts that I can change the results in my life, but I need to work hard to achieve and earn the results. I need to rewrite my delusional blue print. We can have anything in life that we are willing to work for.
I have never really worked hard at anything…
Time for change!
I love your raw honesty Gerhard. Can’t wait to see you rewrite your blueprint into the blueprint were you lift off.
Yes, Gerhard. We can have anything in life! 🙂
Cheryl, that is cool that you grew up to be a ‘flight attendant’!
Good post Gerhard, your words and how you shared your feelings and thoughts resonated with me in many ways. I too was able to get good grades without too much effort and the flying was also a part of my dreams. I used to dream a lot of flying to places, it was fun! Need to fly again! Thank you!
“Time for Change”
Accepting your new blueprint and letting the cement come loose and fall off. You are in a great space with great people to share your journey. Looking forward to seeing the great things that you discover.
Gerhard, LOL! What a great post. I loved it and agree we have so much potential if we knew how to use it.
I too always had dreams of flying as a child running through all the neighbors back yards one hill after another. I would leap down each hill feeling like I was flying, then I would circle my arms around and around until I am in flight and can fly over everyone.
Then I grew up…I grew up and I became a flight attendant, LOL!
The power of the subconscious mind working since childhood.